Mittwoch, 31. Dezember 2008


So 2008 is almost over, and I survived.. wow. Right now I guess it's time to think about things that have to happen in 2009, or on the other hand, shouldn't happen anymore.

Here we go.

+ studying even faster and harder. I wanna be through with school next year, though this is somehow wishfull thinking.

+ listening to more soul and jazz music, especially jazz.

+ watching more discovery channel history, although this will be kinda hard without having cable. So who has discovery channel and invites me over? Let me know.

+ doing my internship and trying to get paid for it. Wait a minute. I live in Germany, yeah this won't be happening for me..

+ going to Chicago another time. Does anymone wanna sponsor me?

+ more love for 2009 in general.

- less partying and hangovers.

- less party animals around me.

- maybe I'll give up on smoking.. I said maybe.

altamont apparel

look ma!! :)

normally i´m not into this death-stuff on shirts but i like the altamont collection.

altamont is one of my favourite when it comes to strictly skateboarding-apparel.

and they got a wonderful jimi-hendrix-collabo you definitely have to check out.

PS: tonight we have a new-years-eve-party here in our flat. and after one or thirty coffees i´m some kind of looking forward to it. but do you know the state of mind when you put some juice insted of milk in your first coffee of the day because the packages are standing side by side in the fridge? welcome to my world!!!

Sonntag, 28. Dezember 2008

I never thought I would say this

But this makes me wanna join a church or college choir.

Dienstag, 23. Dezember 2008

So Christmas.. almost here. And I somehow wish I could be as excited about it as my roomate is. Seriously, she acts like a child since the past 5 days, running around asking everybody what we got her for christmas. It's cute though, that's just how she is.
Unfortunatly I don't have this christmas feeling yet. I don't even feel like driving home for christmas and meet my old friends in the city like I usually do every year. I guess the moment I know christmas is really here is when I go out dancing at the forum tomorrow night.

And don't forget about the T-Party at JZ Kamp on december 25th... plus we all meet again to train for new years at forum on december 30th. Right? Right.

And by the way: Thanks for coming out on Thursday night.

And P.S.: I'll be at Fellbaum's place tonight and record the next monkey fixtape.. Hell yeah.

Merry fucking christmas everyone!

Sonntag, 21. Dezember 2008

good morning

do you know that feeling of a some kind after-party-sadness on sundays? i´m sure you do.
someone wanna join me?

the countdown to christmas is nearly over and i give you this as a present for this sad sunday:

the next two are just for the taste of it.

Samstag, 20. Dezember 2008

the bro-code

i love it when my flat-mates have thier friends here for going out. then they do what all other men do: drinking and talking weird stuff.
yesterday one of the boys brouhgt a book with him i found this morning in our kitchen:
"the bro code" by barney stinson and matt kuhn.
it´s some kind of collection of rules how one bro has to deal with other bros.
the book gives first answer to the important question "what (the fuck) is a bro?".
a bro is a lifelong companion you can trust, will always be there for you, unless he´s got something else going on.
then a list of 150 rules follows.

here some examples:
article 1: bros before ho´s.
article 2: a bro is always entitled to do something stupid, as long as the rest of his bros are all doing it.
article 12: bros do not share dessert.
article 37: a bro is under no obligation to open a door for anyone. if women insist on having their own professional basketball league, then they can open their own doors. honestly, they´re not that heavy.
article 99: a bro never ask for direction when lost.
article 118: when a bro is with his bros, he is not an vegetarian.
article 149: a bro pretends to unterstand and enjoy cigars.
article 150: no sex with your bro´s ex.

this is of course a minimal selection of all these wonderful articles.
i must say i love this book and really think about to keep it.
but, no, i will put it back right now.

this was the first literartur-referral here. i think it was a good start.

Freitag, 19. Dezember 2008

party review: funky cold moped live @ plan b

last night german kleinigkeit a.k.a. funky cold moped had her first show at plan b here in bielefeld.
she was amazing. the mixture of music was nearly perfect for a night at this bar.
it´s not possible to describe the several genres because the music was so manifold. i just can say the combination of this wonderful woman with the regular plan b- dj le darko was the best thing ever can happen.

in my opinion funky cold moped has found her destination and we hope that she will turn her passion into a regular part of our party nights.

please never put the earphones down again and thank you very much for your affinity to music.

Donnerstag, 18. Dezember 2008

my mobile´s dead of the worst things that can happen during the day, next to "my mp3-player is dead", is "my mobile is dead".
i´m trying to calm myself with "NO, i´m not 16 anymore and NO this is not the end of days" and so on.

with this new feeling of freedom, i use this opportunity to reconsider my life...uiuiui...including my jobs, my friends, my way of creating the day.
what could be better? what is already perfect?

first of all: i love my friends. thanks for you all!
i definately need new jobs. i hate the work at the university office. i´m working in a skateshop as well sometimes at the weekends. perhaps i should do this more often.

and...oh...i like to have a rockstar as a boyfriend, please. some of the tough guys. and it would be great if he is good in skateboarding as well.
tomorrow i´m going to check my hometown to find him...

then i like to have a dog. a dalmatian. i like the jumper these dogs wearing every day.
and then i like to complete my degree...just a few months left...yeah.
this is my ticket out of this sad little town we are living in.

as a result...there are just a few things to change. some easier than others, but everything is possible. nice.

AND please, if you´re in town tonight:

we love to disco at plan b with funky cold moped and le darko.

Dienstag, 16. Dezember 2008

Good night.

Our weekend starts on Thursday.

Get out of your hood and get into the bar, cause your girl's bringing you some good music. And don't forget your dancing-shoes!

Montag, 15. Dezember 2008

xx xy

yeah guys, I know you think that's true and that it's like that with every girl, right?
truth is: you're wrong.
truth is: we love when you're nothing but nice n sweet (some even like that romantic blablabla). But you better don't start with that stuff before at least a couple of weeks.. others we just get boooooored.

oh and maybe if I find some time totmorrow I'm gonna draw a comic for the opposite sex and their fucking klischee: You only love us when we ignore you and treat you like shit, right?

fact is: beds are pretty cold in december.

His name is Bernd

and he now lives on my underarm.
and no, I'm not a member of the grey wolves now.. I'm not even turkish.

By the way.. oral examination.. straight Aaaaaaa. yessss.

Dienstag, 9. Dezember 2008

be like her...oh juliette

watch thizz. you all know juliette lewis and the licks?
powerful woman with an unbelievable perfomance on stage.

i love that really. and i miss this kind of performance so often when i´m on shows of bands with female bandleaders.
so please, please girls and women watch juliette and try to get attached by her power.

have nice evening now...i´m about to continue my diploma thesis about women in the hardcore-punk scene.

Montag, 8. Dezember 2008


Yeah I don't really know what it is with me and oral examination, but I have to take one tomorrow and I'm already a nervous wreck right now and there's nothing I can do about it. But a certain someone lately told me I should find a special song for that day and listen to it before doing the examination. Soooooo which song should I pick?

Are you hungry?

Thanks Markus for showing me this delicious (?!) little video.

Sonntag, 7. Dezember 2008

Richie Jackson

this sunday i proudly present the amazing, the adorable, the what-ever-in-hell-skateboarder RICHIE JACKSON.
this is his part of the transworld "and now"-video.
just check it out and try to keep your mouth shut.

Richie Jackson And Now

Freitag, 5. Dezember 2008

Road to ruin

So my day started like this today: "Fuck it I'm not gonna save my birthday money at all. I go shopping." So I did. And by the end of the day I went from rich to quite bankrupt.. whatever. My hunger for new stuff is finally satisfied.

And if you don't think that this is one amazing song.. you prolly don't know shit about music.

Dienstag, 2. Dezember 2008

that´s life

in the last few days i had to learn a lot about life.
i am not very good in dealing with conflicts, but seriously is there someone who really is good in that?
i´m asking myself lots of questions these days.
when someone hurts you, some familymember or a friend, sometimes you can´t do anyhing about it. especially when that hurting person doesn´t care.
but what to do then? being indifferent as well? i´m really not that kind of person who can say "thank you for that and now go away!" but this would be better for me.
where is the problem for some people just to say "sorry" from time to time?
it is easier to run away...time is healing everything, they say.

i hope people learn eventually how to deal with others and how to react to emotional hurts (made to others or experienced by themself).

i can´t say that i am perfect in dealing with others, but i´m trying to do my best everyday.

for encouragement and assistance i seriously need a strong man by my side (some male friends of mine might laugh now, because they knew that from the start).
and a constrictor snake would be a great help as well.

oh and please be patient and careful when your going out into the shopping street, people might look like that in these days:

Montag, 1. Dezember 2008

Dear neighbors

Really, there's no need to hit your ceiling with a broom just because we listen to our music a little too loud. I mean I know these apartments do have paper-walls. But hey.. just take it as a gift from one neighbor to another: we offer you some good music taste and all you have to do is: enjoy it!

Seriously you make feel like 14 and living with my parents again

December 1st

So it's that one day a year we all think about Aids and its victims. Apparently the only day we do. Because I don't see HIV or Aids campaign ads around the rest of the year. Seems to me we only have a problem with a certain disease on December 1st. Or is it because instead of red ribbons we started buying pink ribbons? Is that the reason we began to forget about it? Because we can only focus on one big problem?

Or... we just got used to it.
I guess that's what happens when you live in an over-privileged rich land with health care. If you don't see the problem in front of your eyes it's just not there right?
But people, it's there 24/7, 365 days a year. Think.

Samstag, 29. November 2008

Man Machine


Donnerstag, 27. November 2008

christmas is coming soon

today it was christmas-time here at home.
we decorated our advent wreath and baked some cookies.
we made two types of them. one tastes really good but looks like shit, the other one looks really good but tastes like sausages. it´s amazing!!

Mittwoch, 26. November 2008

Kids, winter's here!

And that means you're listening to all those records again you coulnd't listen to when it was summertime back then. Cause you know, you don't wanna listen to all this depressiv kinda stuff when the sun's shining on you cute little asses, right? Right. For example, I can't stand the sound of Joy Division or Tiger Lou when it's summer. I just can't, it never fits in my mood. So tonight while studying and hanging on the telefon for quite a long time I had Waxwing on all the time. Classic, dramatic, emotional stuff... always on repeat, and always humming along. "Nobody can take what everbody owns"... yessss. That'smy shit right here.

Besides, my birthday is coming up in 7 days. If you're still not sure what you should get me, try getting me this:

Dienstag, 25. November 2008

a female urologist on

do you know the vice magazine? thier homepage is named viceland. there you can find articles that aren´t in the printed mag and many more stuff.
today i read an interview with a female urologist. she reports about her job, the tiniest penis and the biggest penis, the worst diseases and the best situations she had at work and so on.
check that out, i know you want it...!!! you will find here.

Montag, 24. November 2008


Getting Up aka song of the day

Are you scared?

Seriously I don't know what it is with me and horror-movies. I seem to be addicted to them since I was a child (I even remember wachting the fog with my Dad when I was 5 years old).
So OK you might wonder what is so strange about loving horror-movies, and there really isn't anything strange about it, except the fact that I'm the most whiney person while watching. I get scared, I make the weirdest noises ever, hide behind blankets, pillows, persons sitting next to me... blablabla. So if anybody would do something like this to me, I'd kill that person.

Good night, I'm wathcing Masters Of Horror right now.. alone..

wasted german youth

after an alkohol-(ful)filled weekend i always remember weird things i have seen or listened to some time ago.
so this morning i remembered "wasted german youth".
i love their shirts and stuff. and i really like to buy one BUT how fucking expensive can a simple t-shirt be?
if you like to check them out, please do so. and by the is coming soon...

Freitag, 21. November 2008


today i made another one. for the same guy. but he isn´t my flat-mate anymore. this year i made a double-neck...he is older, you know, so he needs some reserves.
the party is tomorrow. so if someone here sees the cake and is invited too...psssssst. :)

i like baking...
last year i bake a guitar-cake for my flat-mate´s birthday.

I like food, food is good.

Guys, if you wanna win my heart, you gotta battle me in eating this.

I just can't get enough of this.


OK, working out in the morning is something I lately have a need for every day. If there just weren't some disgusting, stupid, annyoing things I have to deal with at the gym. The kind of things that sometimes really make me wonder "why am I still going here?"

1. This pretty old guy who's going to gym exactly at the same time I'm going there. And then does nothing but starring at me, no matter what he's doing, if he just walks by me, works out far in the back of the hall, works out next to me: he just keeps STARRING. Creepy.

2. Girls, I don't know if you haven't noticed it yet: your local McFit Gym is not Venice Beach. So there's no need for dressing up as if you're going out to the clubs.

3. And what's up with that stupid gym-TV-channel? Are they really showing illegal ghostrider/streetfighter races there? As if the gym wasn't full of testosterone allready. Plus: It's OK to show some beach-clips once in a while, but I really don't wanna see some girl's asses in it aaaaall the time.

4. And guys, I have my headphones on cause I don't wanna talk to anyone at all. Not even to the coaches. I don't wanna talk about the music I'm listening to and not about tattoos. Just not interested.

5. Seriously I love Skateboard/BMX clips, but not the ones where I can tell that some dude just broke his leg/arm/whatever. I kinda lose my balance when I see people fall. I almost fell off the fucking crosstrainer the other day.

I'm done.

Mittwoch, 19. November 2008

ROCKSTAR makes you fly high...

probably you already know this little piece: the "rockstar" energy-drink.
i tried three varieties, the normal "black" one, apple and mango-orange-passionfruit. and i can say it kicked me. no wonder when you consider the size of the can.
and i´m really dithering about a career as a rockstar-model...after a liposuction, after blowing-up my tits and my whole self, and after a brain-removal. i just have to check, if i have to dye my hair blonde.
maybe you can help here.

i´m also looking forward to have a meet and greet with all the rockstar-music-bands, like rise against, disturbed, walls of jericho, bullet for my valentine, slipknot and many more.

but my favorite is AIRBOURNE. check them out here. good sons of metal...yeah!


To me it's still one of the best movies EVER. I remember sitting in the theatre and crying cause I was scared to death. The last scene is prolly the best.. Blair Witch Project, here we go:

Just in case

the police finds you on the street, late at night, totally drunk and they wanna know who you are.. just answer like Charles Manson would do it.

Montag, 17. November 2008

Guess who's back

Again Hamburg was amazing. Saw my godchildren, stayed with the best girl in the world for a couple of days, went shopping (hello urban outfitters, you might wanna lower your prices in the future, cause I know you want me to wear your stuff. I mean prices were OK in the states, but here?! Wake up, we don't have the Dollar, we pay with fucking Euros!).
Plus I've been to this incredible restaurant called Juwelier. Go there if you're hanging out at the Schanze, cause you don't wanna miss THIS taste.

So here we go: the reasons why Hamburg is on my Top-5-list of the "Cities I wanna move to in the future":

Juwelier Hamburg, Weidenallee, 27

I don't remember the shop's name, but you can find it pretty close to the Kiez. Go in there and drink some coffee or Yogi tea or just buy one of their crazy-coloured shirts.

Altona, Hafenklang/Ex-Karstadt

Donnerstag, 13. November 2008

the ipod-situation

last week i found an ipod nano at university. maybe it just felt out of the pocket of someone and there it was...the little sweet...laying on the stairs...there it was at my feet.
i saved him from the dreadful floor and took it home. save in my pocket.
i thought "hell yeah...this was christmas for this year. a bit early...but thanks a lot".
at home i studied the contents of my new little friend. and was shocked!! it was a mixture of pur, böhse onkelz, fettes brot and 3 doors down and some radio plays.
THIS IPOD FLED!! it must have been a nightmare for him. and now he found a person who holds him in high regard.
but after a while the guilty conscience came the shape of the voice of my mother and some female friends (no boys of course).
i posted some notifications at university. and voilá...a guy called me. FUUUUCK!!!!
he studied law...and had a bad taste of music.
he was very glad having his ipod back but said to me:
"oh, i was pleased to see your notifications. otherwise i just would have bought a new one tomorrow"
what an asshole!!! and then he gave me 25 euros reward.
but the best thing was that i got an sms from him hours later. he wanted to drink some coffee with me.
this was more than a good bed-time-story. but help yourself to the moral.

Mittwoch, 12. November 2008

How you know you're a kid of the 80's

You just can't get enough of

alright kids, I'm on my way to Hamburg tomtorrow..
See ya

memories inspired by mr. miyagi

one thing on my never-ending christmas-wish-list is the "captain future"-soundtrack-LP.
seen under for just 130 euro....(no comment!!)
on my way through 3-w-world i found some interessting things linked to that theme:

Hell no!

I just read it on perez hilton's sweet blog that there's going to be a Karate Kid remake?!
Why would you want to do that? Just because the kids of the late 90's don't remember the version of the 80's? I'm pretty sure Mr. Miagi wouldn't be cool with that.

Vegan Masters Of The Kitchen

So since I'm back to the vegan lifestyle I'm pretty much obsessed with food. Everybody who's vegan knows what I mean I guess. Going to the grocery-store feels like shopping for clothes. Whatever.. So today it is a day for broccholi and Tofu again I guess.
If you don't know what to have for lunch or dinner then here's what you might wanna have.

What you need: Tofu, pasta or rice, peanutbutter, broccoli, soy-cream, soy-sauce, chilli, spices, onions.

To make sure your fried tofu has the perfect taste: cut it into pieces add soy-sauce, chilli and other spices like maggie or salt.

Hamm,hamm, hamm

That's my girl right here!

To some it might be old news, but Leslie is the shit!
She makes me wanna wear golden spantex pants.

Dienstag, 11. November 2008

Chi-Town, bitchessss.

God, I miss this city so much.
I miss the people, I miss the lake, I miss the food.. I kinda miss everything about it. But maybe the worst thing is: I won't be able to watch another Bulls game that soon. Damn!

Oh and yeah, talking about the Chicago Bulls.. this is maybe the man of my dreams.. besides Caleb Followill.

stick on it...communication

when you´re going through the city-streets are you paying attention to these wonderful self-made-stickers on traffic lights, traffic signs or other signs? On walls, handrails or stairs?
don´t say that there are non in your streets, you just haven´t seen them yet.
some friends of mine are streetartists or some-to-be and design wonderful stickers with cats, rabbits oder monkeys on it (i just realized the only-animal-thing...why that??). it´s nice to find them all over the city on my ways to university, clubs or the station.

when you´re on your ways through your city the next days, pay attention to it.
maybe you´ll find stickers you like, recognize some communication behind it.
maybe you start to sticker yourself...think about it...

Happy New Year!! Yes...FOR GOD´S SAKE!!

i hate it. i hate it so much. but every year the same fucking shit!
"What are we going to do on New Year´s Eve?"

the first problem is, that everybody thinks that this party has to be special, that everyone has to be special, that the dress has to be special, the place-to-be has to be special, everyone´s mood has to be special...special GOOD, GREAT...whatever.

but why? these great expectations always lead into great disappointment.
you are always drunk, always in the fucking same clubs as every other fucking weekend.
but oh...on New Year´s Eve there IS something special: every fucking person, who stays in the whole year, thinks that NOW is the time for party. so the clubs are filled...with simply everybody.
just like everybody thinks it is a good idea to go to church at christmas. bullshit.

the second problem gets obvoius after a glance at the calendar.
it´s NOVEMBER guys!!!!!!!!
ok, you can buy christmas-chocolate-stuff since october...
but FUCK man: it´s NOVEMBER.
and this New Year´s Eve-Party-Thing is a big fuck-up.

I'm officially a hippie now

Don't ask me how this happened, it just did.

Plus there's this song stuck in my head

alright.. I'm off to the train-station cause I just went out of LSD. Bye.

Montag, 10. November 2008

Monkey Fixtapes!

For the ones who don't know it (and there are prolly some of you) there's a mixtape project i have going on here with a friend of mine. The Bielefeld HipHop scene might know him as DJ Fellbaum. So we record mixtapes every once in a while, give them to friends or hide some tapes at random parties. I just decided to upload them here in case you don't even have a tapedeck or walkman anymore (shame on you!).
so he gets one side, I get the other.. that's pretty much it. Enjoy and let us know how you like it!

90 Minuten Hardcore- echte Gefühle!


1. Intro
2. David Bowie-Dj
3. Frank Zappa-Broken Hearts Are For Assholes
4. Gravy Train!!!- You MAde Me Gay
5. Zauberstab Interlude
6. Eazy-E-I'mma Break It Down
7. LL Cool J-Mama Said Knock You Out
8. Mundtransfer Skit
9. Juelz Santana-Oh Yes
10. ODB and Macy Grey- Don't Go Breaking My Heart
11. Huey Lewis And The News-The Power Of Love
12. RJD2-Through The Walls
13. Robert Palmer-Johnny And Mary
14. Clipse-Trill
15. Ghostface Killah-Good
16. Jupp-Skit
17. Zox-I'm Only Waiting
18. The Jesus and Mary Chain-Just Like Honey
19. Outro

1. Intro
2. X44 Wormdirection-Too Bad
3. Interlude
4. Outerspace & Vinnie Paz-Brute Force
5. Bloodline-Cruxifiction
6. X44 Wormdirection-I Am Evil
7. Marsimoto-Randale Und Liebe
8. Fingerhood-Fuchsteufelswild
9. Reaching Quit-I Beer
10. Taktlo$$-Eine Fabel
11. Hope-The Rain Don't Last
12. Lady Sovereign- Cha Ching RMX
13. Weird Al Yankovic-Eat It
14. X44 Wormdirection-Yellow Brown Underwear
15. Clever Chris-World's Upside Down

Sonntag, 9. November 2008

I know it's a little early...

but if you wanna know what you should get me for christmas: